seems like ages since i posted here. and to think my last post was like so-so. anyways. its 2am. and good friday came and went. and vacation is about to end without me enjoying it to the fullest yet!
first and foremost, my babies are in baguio. im all alone with my cousin… and i have to stay here since we will be preparing for a training on monday. so…
so in the spirit of calling this MY personal blog, i am going to tell you how i spent the lenten break. and since im with my kenny g and instrumental playlist, you have to bear with me. im in a mood for romance, dear.
1. i watched pride and prejudice. with keira knightley and matthew macfadyen.
if these kind of movies were made when i was in high school i think i would have topped our lit(erature) subject then. for one, 17 looonngggg years after i was required to do a book report on it did i truly appreciate jane austen’s pride and prejudice. im not gonna tell you the whole story, just click the link, you’ll appreciate it better -
this is a story about two people whose feelings for each other were clouded by the circumstances under which they met. and their first impressions of each other.
but i am just so in love with mr. darcy… his brooding character… his shyness which was commonly mistaken as arrogance… ohh… in filipino terms, we call it makalaglag panty! … but my favorite line
you have bewitched me, body and soul, and i love… i love… i love you. i wish never to be parted from you from this day on. (sigh!)

and when mr. darcy asked for lizzie’s hands from her father, everybody was shocked because they thought they disliked each other… and lizzie told her father she doesn’t dislike him… its just he and i are so similar… we are both stubborn… (another sigh!)
isn’t it just romantic… to see mr. darcy walking towards you, disheveled, not having slept the night thinking of you… (another sigh!)
my experience has thought me to compartmentalize my emotions – like ive learned not to become emotionally attached when sleeping with a guy… its different from feeling the sex while doing it. but the only time i tried committing myself again, poof! my sanity evaporated! – that’s why i am back to no strings attached mode. burned twice already. that was why my relationship with this attached, yes married, guy lasted, cause we never expected anything from each other. just sex. but he’s out of my life now. if i will play around, id rather play around with unattached men. na-karma ako with the guy after him, single and i committed but poof! wrong. we weren’t in love. AND watching pride and prejudice thought me that while i may be like this for now, just enjoying life and dating men, since i haven’t met the man that would sweep me off my feet… i will eventually meet the man who will tell me i bewitched him, body and soul… (sigh!)
and i haven’t been in love, i realize it now… but i am not rushing… falling in love isn’t part of my personal legend right now so be it.. maktub (meaning “it is written” in arabic)… time will come…. lizzie’s best friend, charlotte, married a pastor because she WAS NOT GETTING ANY YOUNGER AND SHE WAS BECOMING A BURDEN TO HER PARENTS… i pity her. people shouldnt get married for those kinds of reasons. i realize now that only love, being in love (not loving) is the only reason i will settle down. romance is something that comes along. you do not go onlooking for it. (sigh!) this movie has made me feel good today. and i believe, someone is there to sweep me off my feet, when, who, where, only time will tell. and i have all of it…
2. i waxed. like i did it myself. i was scared. like when you’re in a salon, you’re already nervous right? so i tried experimenting on my own, and since i was also pretty tight on the budget right now, i might do it myself. unless youve been to a professional, DO NOT do it on your own. in the bikini area, at least. but on the armpits. go ahead. experiment with that. i, however, waxed my bikini area. it wasn’t as good as my waxer in piandre but id say for a beginner its pretty good. in fact, i was loving it i was near to having a brazilian. so i stopped. so for those who wants to try home waxing, try epilin. its available at watsons.
3. i drank 60ml of castor oil. eeeewww! okay. you might be wondering why the heck did i do it? one thing. vanity. nothing more. i wanted to have a flat tummy since i couldnt get rid of my bilbil from having three children… (DO NOT TELL ME TO EXERCISE) i am lazy…. so i choose not to… i dance though… thats my exercise for my belly area… salsa, hip swinging thing, i havent gone to starting my bellydancing yet… hmmmm…. so anyways… my nursing student cousin recommended castor oil for a super fast enema …. hey, do not try this… i was advised by someone i trust… so DO NOT DO THIS WITHOUT CONSULTATING A DOCTOR…
4. i watched MUNICH.

this i watched for eric bana alone. nothing more. i loved him in troy. more than brad pitt actually. i just cannot understand the palestinian, israeli and arab, and spy thing. i didnt want to think seriously although i did get the point of the movie. dont get me wrong. i just dont want to delve deep into the principles of these groups that make them kill each other. besides, the munich massacre was the year i was born. a group of israeli athletes were taken hostaged and later on massacred in cold blood. so i just found out about it now.
but ill concentrate on eric bana. especially when he and his wife were making love. whew. it just turns me on when a man (and i) perspire while doing sex. maybe the glistening skin… sliding sensually against each others skin… the damp hair brushed back…. then add a couple of candles lighted… an incense burning…. and a soft sexy sax music in the background….
the first bed scene was when his wife was 7 months pregnant. the director was good at it though, he was able to make the scene sexy… with big tummy and all… and eric bana’s naked profile against his wife’s butt.. hmmm… sexy huh?
i remember the time with my ex-husband… i was eight months pregnant then… im still wondering (and amazed) how i didnt have contractions when i came…
5. i tinkered with my blog. since i was feeling mushy mushy and a little bit horny then after seeing pride and prejudice and munich, well… now you know why my background is this great body shot… i just couldnt remember the site i got it from… so please…. if YOU are the owner of this shot, please email me to properly acknowledge you… eventually, maybe later this year, i will also make a point i have at least ONE artistic nude shot.. everybody should have one, i think… dont you? i mean, come on, dont tell me you didnt wish, not even once, when seeing a great piece of nude art, that you wished it was you? i did. many times. so… eventually. i will have mine.
6. now, im suposed to go back to working on our company sites and post something. but i just couldnt. ive decided to take a break and have some time to myself. and i think the castor oil is working already. i have this funny feeling… im going out for a smoke… when i get back… then i will work.
but i will leave you something to feast on…. as i will later on…


sigh!!! isnt the male species a delight to behold?